Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
20.3.15 That Business
I will not name the company name.
I was in this a few months, seen enough to understand the cycle and methods. Utter bullshit is what I'll describe the whole thing. To clarify, it may work for some but definitely didn't for me and therefore no names will be mentioned in respect for people who succeeded in this industry.
Everything is my personal honest opinion.
This is the business whereby once you step in, it's either you stay trying to get back your capital and possibly get something out of it or you get out and lose a sum. Getting out and losing a sum of hard earned money sounds stupid yes, but in return you can actually get a hold of yourself and your own bloody life.
I was in this a few months, seen enough to understand the cycle and methods. Utter bullshit is what I'll describe the whole thing. To clarify, it may work for some but definitely didn't for me and therefore no names will be mentioned in respect for people who succeeded in this industry.
Everything is my personal honest opinion.
This is the business whereby once you step in, it's either you stay trying to get back your capital and possibly get something out of it or you get out and lose a sum. Getting out and losing a sum of hard earned money sounds stupid yes, but in return you can actually get a hold of yourself and your own bloody life.
14.2.15 Pre Valentine's Day
If you've been with me since I started blogging then you'd know about Kelvin Y. If not it's alright, let me tell you a little about us. I have known him since I was really young, like a legit kid kid kind of young. We used to play together along with other kids - cousins and strangers.
Never talked because we were too shy, we just don't know how the hell to say hello ok. When we play games like the floor is the dangerous sea or playing house/pretend to be adults living the adult working life (it was fun while our youth lasted) we would talk as needed but that's it.
As we grew up we started texting, not sure what we talked about but it seemed like we have a lot to talk about. Then neither of us would say anything if my mom & myself bump into him & the relatives, only to continue texting minutes after the adults say bye. We got into the teenage stage, started to finally talk and hung out with his friends because I had no friends as you know.
Well, long story short, he makes me happy and has been a really important person to me. I'm so lucky to know him and so glad that we eventually talked after so long of keeping quiet despite almost always seeing each other and playing together. Goodness, how wishy washy.
Six years ago on this date we were supposed to spend Valentine's Day together but things didn't go down so well so six years later we finally are spending Valentine's Day together. Yeah, I can't believe it either. SIX FREAKING YEARS WOW.
May it be a good one.
Never talked because we were too shy, we just don't know how the hell to say hello ok. When we play games like the floor is the dangerous sea or playing house/pretend to be adults living the adult working life (it was fun while our youth lasted) we would talk as needed but that's it.
As we grew up we started texting, not sure what we talked about but it seemed like we have a lot to talk about. Then neither of us would say anything if my mom & myself bump into him & the relatives, only to continue texting minutes after the adults say bye. We got into the teenage stage, started to finally talk and hung out with his friends because I had no friends as you know.
Well, long story short, he makes me happy and has been a really important person to me. I'm so lucky to know him and so glad that we eventually talked after so long of keeping quiet despite almost always seeing each other and playing together. Goodness, how wishy washy.
Six years ago on this date we were supposed to spend Valentine's Day together but things didn't go down so well so six years later we finally are spending Valentine's Day together. Yeah, I can't believe it either. SIX FREAKING YEARS WOW.
May it be a good one.
12.2.15 Yet Again
I have been slacking off. I have been walking down the memory lane from letters to really old blog posts talking about boys, talking about love like dude I should still be watching cartoons or worrying about which shade of orange should I fill the sun in. I would cringe even more if I'm able to find what I'm looking for from early 2009.
7.2.15 K Night
It's 5:20AM. I just got home.
Kelvin came to fetch me with his friend Justin as I prepare to enter the night life for half a day, or night, or morning for that matter. Skipping all the boring stuff, a few more nice people appeared and I don't know about them but I had a blast. It was refreshing and nice, everything and everyone is so real.
Kelvin came to fetch me with his friend Justin as I prepare to enter the night life for half a day, or night, or morning for that matter. Skipping all the boring stuff, a few more nice people appeared and I don't know about them but I had a blast. It was refreshing and nice, everything and everyone is so real.
24.12.14 The Big Gushcloud Expose?
First of all, I don't get the whole fight between Nuffnang and Gushcloud. Second of all, I am actually an actual nobody. Last of all, I cannot tolerate when people say shit about my friend when I know that particular friend very well.
I'm referring to this two posts: One from Xiaxue & another from Kife
Every blogger (especially well-known ones) will say things about how much they value the trust of their fans/supporters. If you've been here for awhile with me, you would know the kind of person I am so I need not put a disclaimer. If you're new, you can just read and set a conclusion yourself. No pressure. There shouldn't be.
If you're lazy to read the two posts I just linked you, I'll summarise them for you: both talking about masking ads. Xiaxue saying GC mask ads and Kife saying Xiaxue does it herself too because she accidentally forgotten to erase off the "Hello Wendy! Here's your EDITED caption for skinny mint 2nd IG:" below -
HONESTLY NOT A BIG DEAL.
People doesn't care about me but still I'm going to give my two cents about masking ads.
I'm referring to this two posts: One from Xiaxue & another from Kife
Every blogger (especially well-known ones) will say things about how much they value the trust of their fans/supporters. If you've been here for awhile with me, you would know the kind of person I am so I need not put a disclaimer. If you're new, you can just read and set a conclusion yourself. No pressure. There shouldn't be.
If you're lazy to read the two posts I just linked you, I'll summarise them for you: both talking about masking ads. Xiaxue saying GC mask ads and Kife saying Xiaxue does it herself too because she accidentally forgotten to erase off the "Hello Wendy! Here's your EDITED caption for skinny mint 2nd IG:" below -
HONESTLY NOT A BIG DEAL.
6.12.14 IDK
Yet another night filled with thoughts. I chose to blog about this than making a video about how I'm feeling because I try to keep the amount of negativity on my channel as low as I can. Especially when my channel is all about moving on to becoming a better person. I thought somebody could relate so.. hi.
My mood doesn't swing. It swings with people. I'm a deep feeler. I feel a lot. Feeling too much makes me think too much. Thinking too much makes me feel a lot more. Feeling so much makes me think a lot. You know how it goes.
I want to take a break from the internet and people around, go for a short getaway trip or something, make people miss me; but I'm not sure if anyone will. I want to tell people how important they are to me and would love to hear the same; but I can't tell if they are just saying what I want to hear or they actually mean it. I want people to love or miss me more than I do; but I don't know if they even love or miss me. I want to mean something in someone's life hearing about how special I am to them, so special that I don't even know; but do they even like me?
I prioritise people. Obviously I care about how I feel and such because I want to feel good but I tend to get too attached/care too much. I feel like.. when they say it's okay it actually means yes, I hope you feel better soon because you're my friend and I want to see you happy but then again, I hope you feel better so that you can shut up about that.
I'm insecure af. No I'm not. I don't even know now. How about you tell me?
Black Veil Brides and ice cream are the best help so if I'm not replying your text without a good reason, I could be crying but I'll be fine in no time. Not crazy, not depressed, just overwhelmed. Taking a breather by myself, that's the way I heal. I don't like to throw my emotional f*ck-pie on people who cares because I need them to save that concern for when I'm at my lowest. In case people I know personally reads this, you caring means the whole damn world to me.
18.11.14 Look,
With a very frustrated helpless heavy lethargic heart, I am writing this post.
Looking at myself now, I laugh. It almost feel like I lost myself again. Don't get me wrong, I love myself one hundred percent, it's nothing about that. I've been getting much more panic attacks recently, so much so that I'm beginning to suspect myself for having split personalities. I have the normal me knowing what's right and loving life, then there's the sad me thinking that whatever happening is the end of what I can take, and finally there's the angry me thinking all about how I can't wait to see the person who did me wrong fall to the damn ground.
Looking at myself now, I laugh. It almost feel like I lost myself again. Don't get me wrong, I love myself one hundred percent, it's nothing about that. I've been getting much more panic attacks recently, so much so that I'm beginning to suspect myself for having split personalities. I have the normal me knowing what's right and loving life, then there's the sad me thinking that whatever happening is the end of what I can take, and finally there's the angry me thinking all about how I can't wait to see the person who did me wrong fall to the damn ground.
23.10.14 Balance
19.11.13 COTD #1 (Confession Of The Day)
27.9.13 Blister
We finally got together after about a week of not meeting due to my life outside of relationship because I somewhat have a schedule to balance family, friends and internet but recently I got a temporary job as an account assistant so that's one more thing in the list of things I have to balance. It's already hard to balance 3 especially all the internet stuff like blogging, filming and editing videos takes a lot of time each but that's what I really enjoy doing so I don't find it troublesome, just kinda stressful when I can't get anything up for you all because as someone on the interweb, you have to be regular otherwise people will forget about you and that's just how the internet world is.
I am really blessed to have such awesome people in my life. One like you, who sticks around and understands when I wasn't updating my blog or uploading any videos. Of course plus the people around me who stayed though I neglected them for my relationship and of course the one I was tweeting about as quoted "Sometimes we hurt people unintentionally & we hurt them so much we want them to leave because we don't feel deserving of their love anymore but they insisted on staying saying it's okay for the words you say that brought them pain, it's okay as long as they can still be with you. Those are the people (if they aren't part of your family) who really love you, who still try when you're giving up; people who are worth it." from my twitter @michelleakj.
Also to add to this post, I came up with a little schedule to make sure you guys can look forward to almost everyday (hopefully) by my YouTube and blog. This is what I'm gonna do, a new video will be uploaded every wednesday so if you manage to catch a new video from me basically means that you've survived half of the week and you only have 2 more to go to the weekends! As for blog posts, I will update at least once a week on monday/friday or maybe both. If you see me updating on monday, it means that the video on wednesday is not related to the blog post I'm going to post on friday (I hope a little down from an empty monday will make you look forward to wednesday more) and the usual last day of the month's VOTM (vlogs of the month) and first day of the month blog post update + an update video for the previous month on the first wednesday on every month. I hope this is not very confusing but I'm starting to get confused myself. - We will be looking at the weekdays only.
3.9.12 Not fucking perfect
Mistakes. Misunderstandings. Miscommunications.
Words. Choices. Mind. Heart.
This is for the guys and girls who did someone wrong and still think you're right. & for the haters.
Ask yourself:
Are you confused over a simple question?
Words. Choices. Mind. Heart.
This is for the guys and girls who did someone wrong and still think you're right. & for the haters.
Am I happy after all the crap I've done? Is this really what I wanted?